Had my first counceling appointment today. I love that my University has this available for it's students. I have most certainly taken advantage of their services (and the tea in the waiting room) My ritual for this is I walk in, check in and drink a small cup of jasmine green tea to sort of center myself for this. It became my ritual a few years ago when I was going through a lot of emotional stuff from a really bad breakup. That breakup was actually the push that got the ball rolling on my path to combating my negativity but that's another story.
It went well, I talked about my concerns with my medication and the reasons why I finally gave in and decided to start on a therapy program to get this anxiety out of my life. Granted, it probably won't ever completely go away, but keeping it under my control is what I ultimately want to happen. I want control, no longer will it control me.
I've been thinking a lot on the emotional journeys of my story characters for a while too. These characters get me through a lot of hardship and this is no different. They're like little muses to cheer me on and give me guidance with a voice I sometimes don't have in myself. Yes, I know they are a figment of my imagination, but any little defense I can build for myself helps. I feel this is a really awesome, creative way of going about it.
Physically, I'm feeling eh...my stomach has not been cooperative lately. I just want to vomit everything in my belly sometimes. That might just be the stress. Meds can't take care of all of it, you know. Some of it I gotta do on my own.
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